Gazpa

There’s a hole in my heart where my father stayed

A place that has never been filled or replayed

I’ve just learnt to cope with not having him there

A strange kind of hollow and I feel him somewhere

 

I would love to just see him one more time

To thank him again for the toil of a lifetime

To give him a hug and hear his sweet voice

A wonderful father loyal to his family by choice

 

Thank you dear dad for your kindness and love

I hope to see you again when it’s my time for above

Your guidance allowed me to prosper and even shine

To install the values and effort to grow my own vine

 

There a hole in my heart left where my mother passed away

A vacuum still gaping and I miss her each day

A presence in my life from my earliest memories and thought

Guiding my actions with love and boundaries taught

 

This mother of mine was larger than life intense

A friendship circle and an intellect quite immense

Unshakeable faith and a work ethic quite mad

Leaving our country without my mother so sad

 

There’s a hole in my heart for my precious older sister long gone

Who passed when so young at a time with four children all done

Jeanette filled most days with her positive and wild way

Leaving a hole that somehow feels even deeper today.

 

Her dynamic, loud and sometimes crazy ways

Took care of us all with love on so many days

Watching her light fade was a pain beyond description

And the hole it left somehow has no prescription

 

There a hole in my heart for my dear Roy brother  

A kind older brother who is missed like no other

Feisty, complex and often in turmoil deep inside

He loved his three children and family with passion and pride

 

So tragic his anxiety and secrets hidden in the open so plain  

I miss my dear brother and think of him often in pain

Perhaps could have protected him more if I was there

Left behind a precious family all broken and in despair

 

I still have my oldest sister Colleen although far away

Regular contact and chats in a positive way

We’re all getting older and I fear nearer the bend

How fickle life is as we draw closer to the end

 

Colleen has learned the value of positive energy enough

Always happy despite a few health challenges quite rough

Still blessed with her three boys and grandchildren some near

It would be great to live a little nearer to her

 

My older younger sister Gail is an Angel in life

Picking up the pieces of her daughter's challenging life

But blessed to have two grandchildren to care for

No doubt my sister will be especially blessed at heavens door

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Gail has had some challenges earlier in Walmer

With an inflexible partner stuck in his childhood trauma

Always seemed so unhappy till much later in life

Met wonderful Deon who made her his wife

 

Family is so important in life we are given

Treat every day as a chance to be driven

To people and family who add to your world

In a positive manner which allows you to build

 

GazPa October 2018